Poor Guy

I am an Alcoholic and a Drug Addict and a Criminal.
This phrase is repeated throughout A Million Little Pieces by James Frey. Although he has dug his own hole and put himself in this awful position of near death, James feels like he cannot get out. All of seclusion and with-drawl has allowed James to evaluate his on soul. He is more aware now than ever of how poor his character has become since his addiction. He doesn't think of himself as a loving or gentle person and others definitely don't view him this way as well.
With his frustration building up, James even got into a bad physical brawl with another patient. Although the other taunted and teased James, his low self-confidence got the best of him and allowed him to make a fool of himself. This embarrassing behavior didn't make James' stay an easier.
In the chapters I've read, James also starts talking more about his past and the previous woman in his life. He only shares bits and pieces and doesn't reveal the entire story or situation with this woman. So far I think this woman was a consistent figure in James' life that he relied on a lot. I think their relationship eventually grew into a romance but life many other things in his life, his addiction sabotages it. Every day he seems to regret or feel guilt from the decisions he made. I think James strongly wants to get better for her and to maybe secure a future with her.
My favorite part about this book is how raw it is. There is no sugar coating. James' extremely vulgar language and vivid details of his experiences make this story seem more real than ever. After all, this book is a memoir of a drug addict.